The Large Man Chronicles

12-24-2009

Believing…Part II   Merry Christmas

Well I think we made it…for the most part. Thanks to PNP.com, and a wife that is committed to the cause; Santa lives in the Large Man home for at least one more year. It’s an amazing website if you have young children like mine, or even if you are an old child…like me. Santa speaks to you on this website, and it’s real, it’s believable, and quite touching. You should give it a try. I still believe in Santa, and I always will. 

The Large Man Chronicle you are about to read has “been sung many times, and many ways”, so please don’t expect much. I really just really wanted to take a minute to say Merry Christmas to all of you and to say “Thank You” for the gift you have given me this year. I get consumed with love and faith and warmth this time of year anyway, sharing this spirit with 300 readers makes it 300 times more special.

 My blessings are greater than my ability to express in this format; I’m more of a physical guy when it comes to showing gratitude. So all I can really do is hug my wife and kids, give some of my buddies a shoulder scrunch, and trust that all the rest of you just know. If I could hug every one of you I would. 

I have a warm home, happy and healthy children, a loving and VERY understanding wife, a great job, and all of you. All of you have given this tortured soul a safe place to emote, to express, and to hopefully entertain. If I have any concern at all, it’s that I am at such a peaceful place in my life, I wonder if the angst that has been a part of my being for so long will remain. Angst is the inspiration well that I draw from. My firm belief is that my creative moments are born from the pain of my past, and the constant yearning of my present. 

The past is gone, and what more could I yearn for? This could be a problem. 

I am at such peace; I find myself listening to Celine Dion songs about “winter snow, and mistletoe”, and not even bitching about it. In fact, I’m listening to Martina McBride singing White Christmas right f**king now and I’m almost enjoying it. I won’t even say anything to my wife about forcing me to listen to this happy holiday shit because I’m just so ass-slapping joyful, and at such peace in my heart, that I refuse to think about what sell outs these popular artist have become – especially some of these country radio “artists”. Hey girls, I have an idea…write something new! I’m all for interpretation of a classic, but when you sing White Christmas exactly the way Bing did it, that’s not really interpretation is it? NEWS FLASH Martina….we already have that version!

I’m just sayin. 

But I don’t want to let my personal feelings about today’s music industry, and the soulless money first machine that it has become get in the way of my heartfelt holiday message. 

My message…The Large Man message is simply a message of peace, love, and belief that the spirit of this season should last all year. It’s also a message of appreciation for the support that you have all shown me this year. You have brought me a sense of peace that I have never known: The peace that comes to you when you feel a sense of accomplishment… The peace that comes to you when you think your dreams actually could come true… The peace that comes when you know you’ve heard Mariah Carey’s All I Want For Christmas for the last f#%!ing time this blessed season. 

Peace.

God Bless you all. Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy New Year! 

The Large Man