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A Year Later

October 28, 2010 by JC Dolinger

I’ve been sharing the tales of this great journey with you guys for a little over 365 days now. I have learned a lot in this year of telling Large Man stories. The best lesson to date is that no matter how much I learn along the way, the things I don’t know will always be in the heavier suitcase. That’s probably the only real sense of pride that I take away from The Large Man Chronicles experience.  

I am in frequent interaction with men and women who know everything, and they are happy to let you know how and why they do. I always find these people comical, and sometimes even a little scary – kinda like a circus clown. That will never be me. The more I write about the people, places, and things that I see, the more I realize how much I don’t know.

Every time I sit in front of this Compaq 6515b and try to turn my view of things into words, I realize all the things I don’t understand. Presenting a coherent organization of thoughts expressed in a way that you, the reader, can relate to, understand, and appreciate seems like it should be so easy, but it never is. It’s fun, it’s always a challenge, but it’s never easy. Then, when I press the “publish” key on WordPress, I feel like I’m watching my daughter cross the street  all by herself for the first time…I trust that things are gonna be okay, but I never know.

So why do it?

Socrates said that “the unexamined life is not worth living”. Socrates was a dick.

Well…that may be a little harsh, and I don’t completely disagree, but like everything else, moderation is the key. I truly believe that too much examination of life can be counterproductive – it’s so easy to over think shit. I’m walking, talking, keyboard chunking proof. I over think every single part of my life. I guess I do this because of all the things I don’t know. I’m so proud of it in paragraph one of this little essay, but here I am complaining about it a couple of lines later. This is the shit that the people who love me and I deal with every single day. It’s madness.

 It’s a Bad News/Good News situation.

The bad news: I teeter on the edge of being a semi-institutionalized, drooling, former salesman that tried to make it as a writer but now can’t make it to lunch without the meds.

The good news: Because I write it all out and I’m willing to share, I unload a little of my psychosis bucket into your bucket. To Socrates’ point, this “examination” of life is relatively cheap therapy for me, and it seems to entertain many of you.  Better news:  If the self therapy doesn’t take, and they haul me off to the happy house, you all get be witness to the drama and humiliation. Stuff like that can be a lot of fun.

And here’s the very bestest part: I’m putting all of you in a perfect I told you so position.

If I end up getting hauled away to the funny farm, every one of you can say, “I was there man! I saw it coming. Don’t know why it didn’t happen sooner. Ya know, I always thought there was something about that dude…”

Or, if I become famous (or maybe even rich), you can say, “I was there man! I saw it coming. Don’t know why it didn’t happen sooner. Ya know, I always thought there was something about that dude…”

You’re welcome.

In all seriousness, I doubt that I’m in any immediate danger of a meltdown, but I’m starting to understand why so many people in the arts are a little bit “out there”. The distance between crazy and normal is sometimes measured by ones bank balance. Angelina Jolie gets to roam the street as a free woman because she’s rich. You can’t tell me she’s not off the reservation cuckoo. But other “peculiar” people are put into state homes every day because of their stories about the UFO they saw last night. Income (and smokin hotness) issues many a pass…I think Socrates said that too.

I guess this logic puts me in the “moderately unstable” category. I’m not wealthy enough to be considered a “quirky writer”, but I’m not poor enough to be considered “deranged”.  I’m not a physical threat to anybody, and I pay too much in taxes for the government to let anybody take me off the street. I’m not paranoid or anything, but The Large Man Chronicles is on the internet, so I’m sure there is a government agency that has a file on me. Trust me, they’re watching.

Along with the psychological treatment aspects of writing the LMC, I also use it as a tool that will help me remember and appreciate the things I see along the way. Sharing it with the rest of you wasn’t an original intent, but that’s where I get the magic…if I kept it to myself, it would just be a journal or a diary.  There’s nothing too exciting to me about a journal, and only teenage girls keep diaries…

 Plus, The Large Man Journal would make a shitty looking t-shirt.

The very first time I opened up MS Word and typed The Large Man Chronicles…dropped in the date, and gave the page a title, knowing that it was going to be published on my blog page (Thanks Kelly Armentrout!) I got a few butterflies. My palms got as clammy as the first time I held my wife’s hand, and I just sat there for a minute or two and smiled. The butterflies and sweaty palms are mostly gone, but there is still magic in the moment when I type out the header for the next story. Knowing that a few hundred people are going to take a few minutes to read what I have to say is pretty special. I don’t think that feeling will ever go away.

 I wondered if the things I saw, or the way that I saw them, (just a few parts of my “examined” life) might be something that someone could relate to. Just some of you, never all of you – and not even most…just some would be good enough.  A year and 10,871 website hits later, it’s still a work in progress, but I’m happy with what it has become.  That’s a big deal, because it’s really hard for me to be happy.  The LMC makes me happy, not satisfied, but truly happy. Satisfaction will probably never come, and that’s okay – it’s the way it should be.

Based on your comments, The Large Man Chronicles has made a few people laugh, a few people cry, bored a few, and disappointed a few. If this Large Man thing made a few people think about something that they might not have otherwise, then it has accomplished something.   

I’m not sorry for anything I’ve written, but I realize that some stories were better than others. Some were a little too sweet, some were definitely too salty, and some never delivered the message that was originally intended. It ain’t easy. I have only written one story that I can say I’m truly proud of.

A big lesson learned in the process, and something I should have known at the start, is how powerful the written word truly is. Not my written words, but anybody’s. Having learned this in year one, I’m gonna be a little more respectful of it moving forward. The things we say can evaporate and disappear over time…the things we write can quite possibly last forever. I’m not arrogant enough to think that my ramblings will be historical documents; I’m just going to be mindful of the fact that there is permanence to things that are written.  (I guess I shouldn’t have called Socrates a dick)

 So, that’s why I do it. It’s the therapy for my lunacy, and it’s a desire to get other people to take some time to look around.  Look at your kids, your friends, and your loved ones, and let those images burn into your memory. Enjoy the simple things like a cold beer, and a hot waitress, but still appreciate and try to examine the more complicated things, like a mentor or a hero or a moment in time. It’s all amazing, and it’s all right in front of us. Maybe Socrates had a point.

 I’ll keep throwing this stuff out there, and if some of you can relate to what I’m saying, it will make me feel a little less crazy. That’s’ good enough.

Thanks for reading.

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  1. on October 28, 2010 at 10:23 PM Terrisa

    Every day I check my e-mail in hopes of a new LMC. Thanks JC!!! Happy anniversary and PLEASE keep the coming!!! I love it!!!!!! Hugs and kisses!!
    Terrisa


  2. on October 28, 2010 at 10:28 PM Bridget

    Were you to find yourself in the “happy house”, I vow to smuggle you in a decent IPA… Well done you!


  3. on October 28, 2010 at 11:06 PM Margi

    Loved it, and I soooo get it! Very well done!


  4. on October 28, 2010 at 11:22 PM Kirsti

    How true! Not that Socrates was a dick, hello, but the rest. Well done, sweetie. I will definitely go out an appreciate the next hot waitress I see. Here’s to the next year of reading LMC.


    • on October 29, 2010 at 12:27 AM JC Dolinger

      I remember a time when we BOTH appreciated a hot waitresses


      • on October 29, 2010 at 2:37 PM Kirsti

        Oh, I still appreciate them, I just haven’t actually laid eyes on one for awhile. I did appreciate a very hot Walmart re-stocker this morning, but only so I could help her with her support hose.


  5. on October 28, 2010 at 11:28 PM Karen Christensen

    You make my heart smile:) Well done Large Man!


  6. on October 29, 2010 at 12:12 AM Cindy

    Mr LMC
    You know we travel the same territory….I’m too tired to write about it and why should I when I have you! Today in outer BF Iowa I reverted to that AWFUL traveler you’ve written about in the past….I should’ve maintained my attitude from last night “this is definitely the Twlight Zone” and just gone with it and now I feel bad ’cause this just reminded me about what a jerk I can be!

    Keep the stories and the lessons coming to remind me/us/the world that we need to kick back, observe and enjoy whatever happens our way.

    You Are The Large Man!


  7. on October 29, 2010 at 12:54 AM vicki white dotson

    Jc I am always so delighted and enlighted with the Lmc. It is wonderful pleasure to rrad everythimg you wtite. Keep up the great work I will always enjoy.


  8. on October 29, 2010 at 1:47 AM Lori

    Excellent! As always! Thanks Large Man for keeping me intrigued and coming back for more! I Love your chronicles/journey… I lift a mug for you for another good year!!! You Rock LM!!!

    xoxo


  9. on October 29, 2010 at 2:10 AM Rachael

    you’re welcome. 🙂

    smooch


  10. on October 29, 2010 at 11:51 AM Kathy Wentworth Drahosz

    LMC always makes me laugh, sometimes makes me cry, but I never get bored and never, ever, disappointed. You rock Large Man!! Love & Light, k


  11. on October 29, 2010 at 1:17 PM Suzette

    Love you Large Man oxoxo


  12. on November 1, 2010 at 8:00 PM Phil

    If you end up getting hauled away – who will tell us about it? At least write it in advance so it can be posted.

    I, too, am in contact with people who know everything. The only difference is that I try to photograph them – in the act – or the result. You leave it to our imagination which is much more powerful.

    I am accused by family and by associates as the biggest over thinker they know. I understand…

    Glad this makes you happy. It makes up happy.


  13. on November 1, 2010 at 9:35 PM Sue

    Here’s to another year, JC! Thanks for sharing your journey with us!!



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